Steve - Isn't

I: Ello
Her: hi
Her: i never learned your name
I: I apologise. It's Steve!
Her: steve?
Her: for real?
I: Steve.
I: For real.
Her: Steven your real name?
I: Yepp
Her: oh
Her: i shall call you steven
I: That is fine by me!
Her: I don't like calling people by their nicknames
Her: its just strange
I: Y'reckon?
Her: huh?
I: Do you reckon?
Her: what does that mean lol
I: It means something like "Do you think?", but in that case it was to ask why you thought that
Her: oh
Her: lol

Hm. I doubt it, somehow.

I want to change my name. Not officially or permanently, just... for a while. Try different names on, see what they're like. Next time someone asks me my name, I'll say... Felix. Yeah, that'll do. It's the easiest lie to tell, your name, because there's no conceivable reason why you'd lie, so no one will look for it. And then the repercussions of your lie become apparent rather quickly, as they call you it. It's the perfect crime.

"Wats in a name lol?"

Shut the fuck up, quotation marks.

I've been playing an RPG a lot lately, a fantasy RPG, a fantasy text-based RPG. Damnit, I keep breaking these rules. First animé now this. I blame Dowell and Irishwoman. Anyway, it's not really that enjoyable, but it's addictive and mind-numbing and difficult to avoid. Like sleeping. What's my character like? Please, I'm not going to lower myself to that.

She (didn't see that one coming) is called Jacqueline. Her race is vampire and her class is Chaos-warrior. Here is what she wears:

a) The Two-Handed Flail 'Kraken' (3d6) (+20,+90%) (+1)
b) (nothing)
c) a Coral Ring of Fate
d) a Peridot Ring of Teleportation
e) a Rosetted Amulet of Charisma (+1)
f) (nothing)
g) a Hagaromo [2,+8]
h) a Cloak of Protection [1,+9]
i) a Large Leather Shield of Resistance [6,+7]
j) The Metal Cap of Halloween [3,+12] (+1)
k) a Set of Gauntlets of Free Action [2,+7]
l) a Pair of Soft Leather Boots of Stealth [2,+8] (+8)

Nerd. At least I've cheated. It's too boring if I don't, the same with most games really.

I have an ulcer on the side of my tongue. It hurts, and it's unbearable sometimes. The problem with mouth ulcers is that... you know the way you can focus on a given part of your body, and the focus is always on at least one area at a time? Well that focus for me defaults to my mouth. So it hurts, and the movement is obstructed and my sensations of taste are generally fucked up due to either not moving/swallowing much or the mouthwash I use to treat it fucking with my taste. It's not as bad as the mouthwash that basically numbs the whole of my mouth. It doesn't make things taste bad, and it takes the pain away completely, but... having a totally numb mouth is not a pleasant experience.

It's my own fault anyway. These fucking energy drinks. They make my mouth too acidic and thereby mess it up. Straws help though, so I'm using them. I think I'm going to stop drinking them anyway. I've grown tolerant to that level of caffeine, so they don't make me feel any better anymore. Maybe that's why things have been bad lately (think the past two-three weeks or so). I could drink more? Not good for my health, no, but I don't want to keep feeling this.

How much of my body is me? Is my foot me, or is that an external tool I just use? My hands? My brain? My heart? What about my eyes? My tongue? My penis? My testicles? My optic nerve? My brain stem?

I don't know. They're all dying, but something's eating away at my tongue right now. Is that attacking me? If it was eaten away completely, would I be a different person? What if it was my foot? My heart? My eyes? My hands? My genitalia? Does that make them part of me? What is caffeine doing to me? What would mood stabiliser drugs do to me?

I don't know.