So, I'm resuming my efforts on the polyphasic sleep front. I've worked out a schedule that will work here, and I started following it midday today. Already managed to oversleep once, but that's to be expected really (especially considering I pulled an all-nighter beforehand). Got woken up to the hideous racket of the fire-alarm... stupid toaster... sigh...
Feeling a bit emo at the moment. I'm coming to hate the way I act around this place. It's, in many ways, totally at odds with how I'd like to act and what I'd like to portray. I feel totally unlike myself, totally restricted. The most I can really manage is intellectual conversation, laughter, and various bad of nature jokes. Expression of joy or happiness, including that about a person, is entirely lost, and yet they're more important to me than mimicry and cynicism...
No wonder people get annoyed. I wouldn't want to be around myself with the way I'm acting... it's so incredibly boring and joyless it almost leaches energy from around me...
Sigh, I'll get out of it.
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