Steve - Feels Better Than He Did Earlier

So there's this girl.

Why is it always a girl? I don't know, that's a common question I ask myself. I suppose I did have a boy problem once, and he was my first real problem, and he did last pretty long, but still, I'm a sucky fag. More of an assertive gay dyke-mike. Assertive in the sense that, if someone's not already gay, their chances of becoming so increase the more time they spend around me. Yep, that's right, I turn girls gay! If I were more masculine I'd be a bit worried :P

Anyway, this morning I felt pretty ashamed, 'cause'f the email I'd sent her last night. It might have been because I finally hit on the truth. Then again, it might have been because I only got four hours sleep. It wasn't really an email to be ashamed of... *shrug*. I feel better now though.

I tidied a lot today, and stormed out a playlist for girl. I like it quite a bit. Dunno if she will, but perhaps, at least some of it. I also made a vague attempt at some poetry. I failed, but given that there's a finite number of failures before each success, I'm one step closer. Here's what happened:

It's a bitter irony,
where others fear too few
I fear too large a degree,
of that which makes you live,
as active.

Two envelopes lie

A clot in your brain

That's actually three pieces I tried to do. Failed at all three. I think I'm calling it... Stutter.